Post- A level Diaries

Post- A level Diaries: 

Most of the posts on here are written like diary entries, and that's the way I want to keep it. I want my writing to appeal to others and to make them feel like I am speaking to them directly so they can relate or feel heard. 

It has been a week since I officially finished my A levels and school all together. That still feels weird to say out loud. I'm done. Shouldn't I be happy? Well, contrary to belief I actually feel lost. 

School has been my life for the past 18 years. Now I'm just supposed to integrate in the real world and find my place. It still hasn't hit me that when September comes round I will not be progressing to the next year of school and I will in fact be an adult that will start working full time due to not wanting to progress to UNI. 

I guess that is why those choosing to go to UNI are off on holidays, without a care in the world, because they know that they have a plan for the next 3 or 4 years. There's nothing to worry about because they know there is a place waiting for them when the time comes. 

What about those like me that want to get an apprenticeship and hopefully gain experience in their dream roles. It feels as though my future is uncertain. Rising my anxiety, which interferes with most of my life. How do I overcome the thought of being stuck in a place I don't want to be in? 

Well, over this past week, I have reflected. I want to keep applying and working, because right now those are the things I can control. Which has made me manage my thoughts more, as well as this I joined a yoga group which has given me a purpose to fulfil. Some of my friends are also in the same spot so it has been helpful to talk it out and give each other tips along the way. 

I'm learning that, it it vital to have a good support system as well as a positive mind. Believe me it is gonna be hard and you're probably going to shed many tears along the way, but I promise it will all be worth it when you get that opportunity of a lifetime. 

Keep moving forward

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